The Crush At this point in my life

By Kèlubè

I’m pretty much done with crushes. Secretly fantasizing about a boy who is never going to be into you has lost its lustre over the years. It’s just not that fun to invest any kind of time or emotion in a hopeless case. However, one crush that is still alive and well and extremely fun is the Office Crush. I mean a guy in your office who is probably not the kind of guy you like in real life, but since you see him every day, usually dressed up and often being terribly adult and responsible, he can seem pretty dreamy. And you never have to know if he is a messy slut or a mean ass Whip master in bed. I bring this up because my bestie has one such delectable creature right across her from work. It’s been a month and hearing her talk about him while he is right in the next cubicle got me wound in the whole thing myself. He’s cute (sorta, from the hazy pictures I get) as well but apparently, the voice is unreal. So he sits in the cube next to her and she has half a wall in between them. But to be able to peek at him, every time you raise your neck and then look down, and the moment you do that you think you’re caught. Screaming Teenage Syndrome, but as the French say, “C’est la vie.” The boy stays on her mind most of the day (and mine at times) and with all that sneaking around she does, the name of our mystery man is – well, still a mystery. As sad as it is that I can’t have any of these moments myself working at an office of my own, I try and live it through my mates out in the open world. But just imagine a Crush at work, someone to flirt around from 9 to 5 and then get back to your own world like nothing ever happened. Professionalism has to be maintained at all costs at work, that I know (having it dinned into your head since 13 it has got to stick in) but if the person across the table also happens to inspire a few butterflies, so much the better. You know nothing will come of it and your hours of investment are limited but it can also be a fun distraction when things aren’t exactly hopping in your real life. The little adrenaline rush you get when he flirts with you is 100% authentic. A cute boy is a cute boy is a cute boy, right?