Vicky
One morning when you wake up looking at some blue colour ceiling and then the whole day you started noticing only blue colour objects like the blue sky or Ocean or even your blue underwear or blue color font labels in g4m. Suddenly the world seems, turned blue. I guess it is a kind of colour illusion or colour perception (physics or psychological graduates excuse me for my lack of knowledge).
I was trying to do a recap of my last few years, not surprisingly it was all about being gay. I lived like a gay, spoke like a gay and even started dressing like gay. I hardly even spoken to girls, didn’t even watch a good romantic movie which is heterosexual. I have not even gone to a shop if there are no boys in the showroom. Though there is nothing wrong in living like the way as I’m doing, but being an author I should stand out from the world and see things beyond my interests.
Colour illusion or Colour Perception are all the same. Seeing things in a different light is another name. Arjun is my ex-boyfriend who changed his mobile number without informing me just three weeks after he told me he was deeply in love with me. Lately I have received a call from Arjun’s old number, I thought Arjun changed his mind and his number too. So with an excitement and moment of madness (one of the weakness of being gay) I took the call, but suddenly Arjun had turned into a sissy, his voice was so feminine and there was some music (violin?) displayed in every sentence he uttered. Then I realized it’s not Arjun, the guy (Faizal) who spoke to me is Arjun’s friend and he was clueless why he called me. The phone call turned out to be a hilarious one. The guy tried to find out more information about me and what I did with Arjun rather than telling me the purpose of the call or how he got Arjun’s sim card.
There are two kinds of people in the world- the Optimist and Pessimist. The best example of Optimists are American Presidents. They still think that attacking Iraq is an act against terrorism, finally ending up at the receiving end of shoe hits (even after those two shoe throws how Bush manages to escape still amazes me and he smiled at the end of the press meet. Shameless Bushhhhh!). Best example of pessimists are Indians- even though they are living in a strong democracy, they are still hypocrites.
Whenever I read postings on g4m forums, I always feel the same way- why do we criticize everything, why are we being hypocrites all the time, why do we think that criticizing someone personally is our culture and moral right? I remember, when I saw the news about the Mangalore Pub attack I was horrified and anguished (conservatives please note that I’m neither supporting pub culture nor against it, so don’t come and tell me that I should not go to pubs. If you do that I will threaten that I’ll commit suicide). I guess that was bit pessimistic of me. And then the debate along with Ashok Singhal (BJP leader) and Raghuram (MTV Roadies), where Raghu was literally shouting at the BJP leader, pointing fingers towards him and asking him who is he to say what lifestyle we should choose. Well, that made me feel better, I was optimistic again. I realized both optimism and pessimism is needed. If Wright brothers were not optimistic they would not have invented aeroplanes and then a pessimistic scientist came and invented Parachutes.
Through some of my bad experiences I have taken an oath not to advice people. And once I became a consultant, advising has become my profession. I can’t even give personal advices to my friends for free. I believe only in India you can get advices for free, people who hesitate to give water for free will be ready to give free advices, because they believe that they don’t loose anything by doing that. One of my friends told me that she did a counting on the advices that she has given in her whole life and when she realized how much time she wasted on that, she decided to quit that habit of hers. She also told me that she now carefully spends advising time to actually help people. Physical objectives like helping a struggling young man to find a job or buying books for poor children. I promised her that I will join her team and will give my best on the same. My favourite Mother Teresa said helping poor people is neither a social service nor a hobby, it is our responsibility and we are duty bound to help fellow human beings.
Note: Please note that I didn’t advice you to stop advising.
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